Sometimes I wonder if anyone out there truly "hears" me...hears what I'm saying. I guess it really doesn't matter if anyone gets it or not, because I finally have a voice. Yes, the words often come out jumbled and clumsy, but it's still a victory for me to speak, to say how I feel even if it's not always understood.
I mainly started writing this blog so that I could have a voice, to get my "stuff" out there as a form of therapy. In doing that I hoped my story would reach someone. I'm always thrilled when I find how my blog has touched others. And in turn, each of your words of kindness and support have encouraged and lifted me. Thank you.
Today I received a handwritten note from one of my dear readers. It reads:
Dear "Bubble Girl No More":
I follow your blog. Please don't be offended by that. I think you are fantastic. Yeah, sometimes you type bad words and yeah sometimes you feel like you don't handle things as well as you should. You are still a strong woman.
I am a single guy who makes salary. I can't stand to see you suffer because of some piece of shiz husband. It aggravates me greatly. I swear on everything holy that I'll never treat my wife that way.
I pray for you. I don't have any fancy advice. I won't say it'll get easier. I won't even testify about the atonement/healing.
Frankly, I am caught in this stupid addiction. I hate it!!! I hate what it does to me. I've been doing therapy and group therapy (most out of my pocket) and still it is one day at a time.
This $50 is my restitution.
I will send you $50 or more every month if need be.
It is the least I can do for all the horrible crimes I've committed against women.
Don't give up. Just don't. And keep writing. It opens our eyes.
Sincerely,
Anonymous
Thank you my sweet new friend:) This note and generous donation really made my day. You put a huge smile on my face. You may not see it in yourself, but this one act of bravery and kindness reflects the light within you, the goodness that all of us women so want in our men. I'm not going to give up. And you shouldn't either. It is a worthy fight!! And please keep in touch....
WOW! This young man is stronger than he will probably ever comprehend! The fact that he is in therapy, is paying for it out of his own pocket, the fact the he reads these blogs and truly reflects what is written, and the fact the he felt compelled to do such a thoughtful gesture toward a woman in pain speaks even louder than the words written in his letter.
ReplyDeleteThis post not only brought tears to my eyes but it also put a BIG smile on my face. This young man will probably never know how much this meant to Bubble Girl.... and the other woman following this blog.
You will do great things Anonymous.... You are headed on the right track and there is no doubt in my mind that you will do great things in your life. This act of kindness is proof of that.
Bubble Girl, you are an incredible woman.... I'm calling you today! I'll be at work without Little Dude for a few hours so we can chat!
XOXOXOXO
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SHARING!
This just warmed my heart. There are good guys out there struggling with this. And how lucky he is to be reading what we write now, before he is married, and before he makes these same mistakes with his wife. It's nice to remember that people hear what we are saying. Even if it's only a few people, they are out there. I'm glad you're writing. And I can see how strong you are just through your words. Keep going.
ReplyDeleteIt is nice to know there are still great men in the world!
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