Holding Steady...

I'm hanging in there...holding my breath...trying to enjoy the calm right now...bracing myself for the next kick in the gutt....There will be more I'm sure of that. For right now I'm OK. Been dating a man, though wounded himself, who treats me like a Queen....Of course, as skeptical and guarded as I am, I'm trying to be open minded that he just might be one of the "good" ones. The main thing is that he has a calming effect on me. I need that right now. It's good for me and it's good for my children. I still live day by day...trying not to rely so much on the future, but what I have in the moment. Still trying to be true to myself, what I want, what makes me happy, what brings peace to my life. That is a challenge to be so "selfish" right now. But, I find that it's been essential to my survival...at least right now.